I got some art materials today for 40% off which is a pretty good deal!

The best part is that I felt at home again when I was standing there in the art aisle hugging the sketch pads close to my heart checking out the art supplies. Such a warm feeling!

For awhile there I didn't ever think I would ever feel this way again. I became disconnected from being an artist a long time ago after being a really good artist my whole life.  And now I've chosen in my heart that I would really like to be an artist again. And now becoming my artist self again. I forgot the beautiful feeling and it's good to have it back. The feeling is similar to a very soothing relaxing effect of a lighted candle. This is the best way I can explain it. I'm "home sweet home" again.

 
Soooo taking the time to appreciate this!

<3 & :)

This is just gonna be me journaling from my heart about what I feel that is genuine and good in my everyday life which is "what is up" that makes me the person I am.

I experienced something very special today.

When I was in the kitchen making a raw cake which I was happy with, but really thought the frosting needed some serious tweaking. So I'm at it being experimental doing a bunch of taste test every time I add something new and know that my brain is at work doing a good job. So once I finally did my final taste test, ahh perfect!!! And very impressed how well it turned out and very surprised. It's been a while since I've rolled up my sleeves in the kitchen and be experimental, since I've kept it simple and stuck to my quick easy recipes that I know that taste good.  So I sort of forgot that when I get experimental with raw dishes, it turns out good. 

Something blew me away. My great grandmother has a very unique special touch with food and never really knew till now that I truly have her gift. It's a big deal kind of a blessing to have this. She's the kindest person I ever knew. It's been awhile since I've thought about her. I'm very happy to know this!

This moment inspired me in starting  my journal on here to share my "What Is Up" moments.


<3 & :)

Another year is here 2011
Appreciating 2010
I am here Wondering about me and others
Having faith that all is good
Forgiven past
Learning to be in the now
Casting my worries in God's hands about the future
Stepping out in the world once again with my heart on my sleeves
What do I want to do
What does the good life has in mind for me
What kind of people will I meet in the future
Feeling like I'm on square one again for the hundredth  or a millionth time
It's up to me to venture out and find all kinds of good in this world 
Let me be to see everyone and all things through the eyes of love
To step forward to have courage to let the true inner beauty shine without fear
Hoping that I can be a good friend to each person I meet
And speak only kind words and yet be able to speak the truth
Hoping to find my one true love in this lifetime
I know I'm not perfect I am forgiven because I forgive
All I know is to be the being of love as best as I can is what counts for many more years in my life.

Our Deepest Fear

by Marianne Williamson

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Love is and brings Goodness!!
Love is Everywhere!
Love is in Everyone's Heart!
Love is and brings Gratitude!
Love is and brings Healing!
Love is and brings Wisdom!
Love is the Most Powerful Force in the Universe.
Love is and brings Life!
Love is and brings the Truth!
Love is and brings the Best!
Love is and brings Strong Will!
Love is and brings  Good Mojo!
Love is  a Choice!
Love is and brings Luck!
Love is and brings Abundance!
Love is and brings Peace!
Love is and brings Happiness!
Love is and brings Freedom!
Love is and brings Patience!
Love makes Dreams Come  True!
Love is and brings Kindness!!!
Love is and brings truly All Good Things into our Lives!!
Love is So Much Bigger than What We Believe!!!
Let  the Universe, the World, My World and Your World be over -filled with Everlasting Love!!! 

Peace!!!! XOXOXOX

"Special"

Unique that we all are. There is not one like you or me.
To embrace how special each one of us are  is letting ourselves truly shine.
To do that is to showing thanks and honoring God for who we are.
We have gifts and treasures within each on of us.
Some are found and some are waiting to be discover.
Amazing things happen when we learn how to trust the Above.
We have so much to learn about life no matter how many years we have seen!
Bless all that you are and the world all that is.
If we ALL  did that everyday, the world would just shine the brightest it can be!
Maybe so bright to a point where it becomes heaven on Earth!
The kingdom of heaven is at hand here on Earth.
That quote comes from the well known book,
You and I are special and loved!!

My good thoughts paves a road to the good present,  good future, and good past to look back on.
Thinking 100% positive with no ill feelings is the key to mind blowing good experiences in life.
What I choose to believe becomes my life.
So therefore, I release all the negative feelings, thoughts, and beliefs.
I am free of of the negatives always and choose to do so!
Demonstrating my freedom. I will take a stand to stop criticizing myself when it comes to art, who I am, and what right do I have to enjoy my life to the fullest extent it can be!!
I will give myself approval to enjoy my life  no matter what others may think.
Shake myself free of the negative beliefs like a wet dog! Shake it, baby!!
At this point from here on out, no more dissing on the self.
I'm willing to unlearn all the negative things I have learned in the past.
Choosing to break free of old negative patterns that attracts the negatives outcomes.
Learning to love myself 1oo%!! Make  it 101%!
 Extra love is good!!
I have the power to change for the best in my thoughts and in my intentions.
The power is now to change for the best in my thoughts!!
I take full responsibility for my actions, thoughts, and beliefs!!
I will stand firm now for the fact that it is okay to believe that I'm more than good enough for whatever Life has in mind for me!!
Release pent up negative emotions  so that I can be well in every aspect of my well being!!
Forgiveness is  to be  free . Forgive all whatever that may be.
I choose to confront my resentments and let it go100% so that I can have tons and tons of fun in life!!
Through forgiveness, there is no bondage in my world!
Even the ones I find the hardest to forgive, it's worth forgiving anyways!!
Freedom to have a positive life is doing it through forgiveness!!
I choose to shower myself with 100% love everyday, every moment, and every second!!
I am so worth it to change my life for the best it can be!! And so are you!!! :)

Having no fear to change in a good way is not a bad thing to do.
Expressing myself in a creative way is a part of who I am.
The world has a lot of healing to do.
Believe in the beyond of goodness.
Free to be.